hello world! i am back from the dead! im sure most of you thought id given up on this blog but -hurray- i decided to revive it. and the reason is: STUFF happened. and in our now ridiculously obsessed-with-technology world, i cant really bring myself to open up my diary and pick up a pen, so here i am, typing away! i am not going to sit and think about every single thing that i missed blogging about so ill just give you the important stuff:
im back in india and super happy about it, though i do miss italy :(
school started and it is terrible :(
the big melange festival i mentioned went off with a bang, and i got to walk down the ramp with an extremely hot guy :D what are your views on ramp walking, by the way?
i basically have like one close friend left..... :( but i love her to the moon and back! go check out her blog at http://antiqueparchment.blogspot.in/
im getting very into music...... recently at school, we perfected an a capella version of clarity by zedd and it was so brilliant! if i do say so myself :p
im getting a guitar!!!!!!!!! oh my rowling this makes me so happy that asdfghjkl :p
and finally
drum roll please
i almost had a boyfriend. wow. ok. um. thats the first time i typed/ wrote that. this guy, lets call him...... adrian. ok so adrian is super cute and super nice. i liked him for a while, but he never hinted at liking me back. until recently, when he was nicer to me than usual. my best friend (a.k.a only other close friend apart from squish at antique parchment. so i guess i have two :p) knew i sort of liked him so she asked him if he liked me and he said yes! she was extremely happy, which led him to think that i probably liked him too, and he asked me out.
disaster struck.
sure, i liked the guy, and i was ok with us knowing our feelings for each other and flirting with each other occasionally, but i was JUST NOT ready for the labels and the commitment. i didnt want it. i wanted to be single, free and passionately dreaming about my first kiss, but in a thats-so-far-away way. am i making any sense? basically, i was not ready for a boyfriend. not ready for the pressure and the i-hope-he-doesn't-try-to-kiss-me. but i really really did not want to hurt the guy's feelings. so what did i do? i asked for some time. which obviously convinced him that i was leading him to a slow rejection, but he said i could take as much time as i need.
the next day in school me and my best friend spent basically the entire day wondering, thinking, brainstorming, choosing and annoying everyone else. at the end of the day, id come to a decision. i wanted to say no. but i probably wouldn't see him until tomorrow since i rarely saw him while i was leaving school, so i wasn't exactly prepared to talk to him and let him down. if you know how unlucky i am, im sure you can guess what happened next. im walking out of school, when BAM he drops out of nowhere.
i froze.
he was looking at me expectantly. i tried saying "can i talk to you?" but it came out sounding like "mwbhmfwbm". he did understand though, apparently, and nodded. we walked to the side and-
ok, enough. anyway i said no, awkwardnes followed, the sky is blue, hallelujah.
im back in india and super happy about it, though i do miss italy :(
school started and it is terrible :(
the big melange festival i mentioned went off with a bang, and i got to walk down the ramp with an extremely hot guy :D what are your views on ramp walking, by the way?
i basically have like one close friend left..... :( but i love her to the moon and back! go check out her blog at http://antiqueparchment.blogspot.in/
im getting very into music...... recently at school, we perfected an a capella version of clarity by zedd and it was so brilliant! if i do say so myself :p
im getting a guitar!!!!!!!!! oh my rowling this makes me so happy that asdfghjkl :p
and finally
drum roll please
i almost had a boyfriend. wow. ok. um. thats the first time i typed/ wrote that. this guy, lets call him...... adrian. ok so adrian is super cute and super nice. i liked him for a while, but he never hinted at liking me back. until recently, when he was nicer to me than usual. my best friend (a.k.a only other close friend apart from squish at antique parchment. so i guess i have two :p) knew i sort of liked him so she asked him if he liked me and he said yes! she was extremely happy, which led him to think that i probably liked him too, and he asked me out.
disaster struck.
sure, i liked the guy, and i was ok with us knowing our feelings for each other and flirting with each other occasionally, but i was JUST NOT ready for the labels and the commitment. i didnt want it. i wanted to be single, free and passionately dreaming about my first kiss, but in a thats-so-far-away way. am i making any sense? basically, i was not ready for a boyfriend. not ready for the pressure and the i-hope-he-doesn't-try-to-kiss-me. but i really really did not want to hurt the guy's feelings. so what did i do? i asked for some time. which obviously convinced him that i was leading him to a slow rejection, but he said i could take as much time as i need.
the next day in school me and my best friend spent basically the entire day wondering, thinking, brainstorming, choosing and annoying everyone else. at the end of the day, id come to a decision. i wanted to say no. but i probably wouldn't see him until tomorrow since i rarely saw him while i was leaving school, so i wasn't exactly prepared to talk to him and let him down. if you know how unlucky i am, im sure you can guess what happened next. im walking out of school, when BAM he drops out of nowhere.
i froze.
he was looking at me expectantly. i tried saying "can i talk to you?" but it came out sounding like "mwbhmfwbm". he did understand though, apparently, and nodded. we walked to the side and-
ok, enough. anyway i said no, awkwardnes followed, the sky is blue, hallelujah.
nothing much else has been going on, except i really need some new books to read, i love glee (the t.v. show) and my favorite music right now is Demi Lovato; thunder by boys like girls and Ed Sheeran. give warrior by Demi Lovato a listen if you want to: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WPoG8-WJTt0 and here is thunder: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ytLzxl4-mLw and one of the cutest videos ever from Taylor and Ed: everything has changed
if any of you have read Uglies by Scott Westerfeld let me know, cause i really need to talk about it with someone :)
lastly i want to write about the tragedy people are currently facing in Uttarakhand, India. flash floods because of a crazy amount of rain have led to a huge lack of water and food and about 900 deaths. i dont know how anyone can get over something like that but i think if we all come together to support each other maybe we can hope to survive even the worst things. if any going through a hard time is reading this: stay strong, because you deserve a happy life no matter what you may have done, you can always start again. if you're missing someone like hell, remember you have to be happy because they would have wanted you to. and if you're stuck like me, remember that nothing lasts forever and life goes on no matter what :) ciao my lovelies :)
