21.3.13

ramblings

ok, so im sure everyone has that moment in their lives where they go ''What the HELL is going on??''
when the smartest guy in class fails history. when your best friend basically calls you a selfish b***h. when a guy you've been flirting with online meets you in person and is kind of an ass. when your other long lost best friend calls out of the blue and you have a nice chat. when a guy you've been crushing on forever just got back in town after six months and you didnt even see him. and after all this you suddenly find yourself in tears, for no reason. you might have noticed that i kind of think im at that point.
and this is basically a rant blog, so if you aren't in the mood you might as well stop. so im trying to think of a song to go with this.... maybe breathe by Anna Nalik. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V8rtJRlLdI8
especially the part that goes '2 am and im still awake writing a song, if i get it all down on paper its no longer inside of me, threatening the life it belongs to.' theres also the fact that my 2 am friend isnt really my 2 am friend anymore. and at this point i could go into a whole 'what is wrong with the world'  paragraph but i just dont want to go there. so i will simply change the topic completely.
My newest fandom obsession (perhaps you've gathered by now that one of my hobbies is fangirling) is Imagine Dragons. i love that band. their music is sooo beautiful and thats really all that matters. i dont care who they're dating or what they look like (and its not like i know anyway) my favourite song by them is of course bleeding out. its practically my anthem by now. i love it because of the way the beat starts in the beginning and the epic guitar harmony in the end. one thing i really want to do is see them live... :'(
guess i can add that to the million other things i 'want'. why do we always want so many things anyway?? i mean is there ever a time when you dont want anything AT ALL??  and i dont mean being happy or blissful i mean when you dont want anything like not even a little more sunshine or just a slightly plumper pillow. i think the answer is no. we were made that way, to want things and have hopes and ambition. its what makes us human. at the same time, its also what can make us inhuman. so im not going to lecture y'all about greed and stuff :p and im bored of typing aimless rubbish about me.
ive been thinking about homosexuality and gay rights and stuff like that. the first time i really thought about that was when i went for this thing called MUN(model united nations) which is like the United Nations on a school level. i was in the human rights commission and we were discussing LGBT rights. and i met a girl who was against gays for the stupidest reasons. she thought people choose to be gay. i mean the way they are treated in my country, no one would choose that for themselves which she obviously hadnt thought of. i tried so hard to convince her that people cant change their sexual orientation! but she just didnt want to believe me. like she refused to see reason if it meant she'd have to change her opinion. some people just- ugh. *sighs in frustration* its not like i have any experience since i dont know any openly gay people but i do know that there isnt anything wrong in being born the way you are. if only our entire world knew that, we'd have so much less crime. unless you're born a serial killer then that would just lead to more crime if no one hated you and well.... yeah....
another thing ive been wondering about (i seem to wonder and think a lot huh??) is online flirting.... is it ethical?? or good? or bad? i have no idea. maybe its alright as long as you know the person you're flirting with well... :p but its so easy to lie online.you never know what the other person really means, or if its true. and you cant study their body language which is obviously what you need to figure out if someones messing with ya. sorry im sounding a bit PI- ish or preachy :p
so this has turned from a rant into a nice pleasant... umm.... i dont know what. :p and im not mad anymore at all. maybe a bit bored but thats pretty standard for me. ill go read one of my wonderful new books of which i bought 10 at this amazing book fair where you could by a kilogram of books for rs. 100 (which is an epic deal) normally one good book costs rs. 250 so.
im currently reading In The Midnight Hour by Michelle Spring and im dying to read Frostbite by richelle mead. if there was a song to describe me right now it would be something along the lines of very-sleepy-crazy-obsessed-fangirl-bored-typing-going... to... bed..... *yawn*
                                                                                        goodnight peeps! :)

21.3.13

ramblings

ok, so im sure everyone has that moment in their lives where they go ''What the HELL is going on??''
when the smartest guy in class fails history. when your best friend basically calls you a selfish b***h. when a guy you've been flirting with online meets you in person and is kind of an ass. when your other long lost best friend calls out of the blue and you have a nice chat. when a guy you've been crushing on forever just got back in town after six months and you didnt even see him. and after all this you suddenly find yourself in tears, for no reason. you might have noticed that i kind of think im at that point.
and this is basically a rant blog, so if you aren't in the mood you might as well stop. so im trying to think of a song to go with this.... maybe breathe by Anna Nalik. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V8rtJRlLdI8
especially the part that goes '2 am and im still awake writing a song, if i get it all down on paper its no longer inside of me, threatening the life it belongs to.' theres also the fact that my 2 am friend isnt really my 2 am friend anymore. and at this point i could go into a whole 'what is wrong with the world'  paragraph but i just dont want to go there. so i will simply change the topic completely.
My newest fandom obsession (perhaps you've gathered by now that one of my hobbies is fangirling) is Imagine Dragons. i love that band. their music is sooo beautiful and thats really all that matters. i dont care who they're dating or what they look like (and its not like i know anyway) my favourite song by them is of course bleeding out. its practically my anthem by now. i love it because of the way the beat starts in the beginning and the epic guitar harmony in the end. one thing i really want to do is see them live... :'(
guess i can add that to the million other things i 'want'. why do we always want so many things anyway?? i mean is there ever a time when you dont want anything AT ALL??  and i dont mean being happy or blissful i mean when you dont want anything like not even a little more sunshine or just a slightly plumper pillow. i think the answer is no. we were made that way, to want things and have hopes and ambition. its what makes us human. at the same time, its also what can make us inhuman. so im not going to lecture y'all about greed and stuff :p and im bored of typing aimless rubbish about me.
ive been thinking about homosexuality and gay rights and stuff like that. the first time i really thought about that was when i went for this thing called MUN(model united nations) which is like the United Nations on a school level. i was in the human rights commission and we were discussing LGBT rights. and i met a girl who was against gays for the stupidest reasons. she thought people choose to be gay. i mean the way they are treated in my country, no one would choose that for themselves which she obviously hadnt thought of. i tried so hard to convince her that people cant change their sexual orientation! but she just didnt want to believe me. like she refused to see reason if it meant she'd have to change her opinion. some people just- ugh. *sighs in frustration* its not like i have any experience since i dont know any openly gay people but i do know that there isnt anything wrong in being born the way you are. if only our entire world knew that, we'd have so much less crime. unless you're born a serial killer then that would just lead to more crime if no one hated you and well.... yeah....
another thing ive been wondering about (i seem to wonder and think a lot huh??) is online flirting.... is it ethical?? or good? or bad? i have no idea. maybe its alright as long as you know the person you're flirting with well... :p but its so easy to lie online.you never know what the other person really means, or if its true. and you cant study their body language which is obviously what you need to figure out if someones messing with ya. sorry im sounding a bit PI- ish or preachy :p
so this has turned from a rant into a nice pleasant... umm.... i dont know what. :p and im not mad anymore at all. maybe a bit bored but thats pretty standard for me. ill go read one of my wonderful new books of which i bought 10 at this amazing book fair where you could by a kilogram of books for rs. 100 (which is an epic deal) normally one good book costs rs. 250 so.
im currently reading In The Midnight Hour by Michelle Spring and im dying to read Frostbite by richelle mead. if there was a song to describe me right now it would be something along the lines of very-sleepy-crazy-obsessed-fangirl-bored-typing-going... to... bed..... *yawn*
                                                                                        goodnight peeps! :)