back from the dead

wow. so i havent been on for what six months?? whoever was following this blog probably thought i fell off the surface of the earth or something. but no worries, im back from the dead :D.
so where i have been for the past six months?? in the land of the ridiculously busy, thats where. but i also discovered that i love being unbelievably busy.it keeps me going, gives me something to work for, a schedule, a time limit keeps me from wondering pointless things. when i have nothing to do, i tend to fall into depression, and thats somewhere im not going.
recently, i started to feel like i was losing myself. like i used to be this crazy rebel-atheist-feminist, then i became this super-perky popular chick, lost a best friend and made two more... and in the middle i was a depressed-snappy-teenager.
and now i have a moment to breathe, im going to try and see who i like better. the girl who just loves being whoever she is, or the girl who wants to be loved. or maybe ill always be both. :)
so my exams just got over, and i finally have time to myself and to make sure i dont die of boredom, i bought myself 10 books :D i finished one of them yesterday, its called How I Live Now, by meg rosoff and its one of the most beautiful books i ever read. it taught me a lot, about.. everything... war. people. emotions. love.
some of the other books that made me who i am are:

• harry potter. this series i will love to my last breath.
• pretty little liars and the lying game. they taught me a lot about people too.
• the mortal instruments. addictive, and inspiring.
• the thief lord
• the hunger games
• alex rider
• private peaceful
• the witching hour
• and like a million more (thats not a book)

i guess if im getting into things i love, i could continue. music is a huuuuge part of my life, so is dance and sometimes acting :)

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ive been doing a lot of thinking about stuff like 'world issues' if you want to call them that, but some of that stuff actually matters. like gay rights. (FYI, i support gay rights, im not gay)and womens rights. and ive been thinking about war and terrorism too. and wondering what pushes people to kill others...

ok enough of this depressing stuff :p

so i have nothing much to say... id bore you with all the fabulous stuff i did in the last six months, but by now im bored of that too :p so this is goodbye :D hopefully ill be back in a lot less than six months :) one last smiley :D