30.3.13

Stop. Judging.

I saw this on Facebook a few days ago. i loved it. i wish i could show this picture to every prejudiced racist freak on this planet. and you know where id start?? my school. my city. my home. im completely serious. people here actually don't always trust Muslims  i once had a friend who said to me, " i dont like this area. there are too many Muslims here." i almost knocked her lights out. come to think of it, i should have. she's caused nothing but pain. (in case you're a bit slow, we aren't friends anymore). so getting back to the point, when are people going to realize that not all Muslims are terrorists?? just like all smart people are not nerds and not all pretty girls are stupid. i guess what im saying is STOP GENERALIZING. people just assume things about you, because you come under one label or the other. i've been called im a nerd nearly all my life. and sure sometimes i love being a nerd but people cant seriously think i do homework all day. so back to the picture. i dont think i can count the minutes ive spent trying to explain to the jerks in my class that not all Muslims are terrorists. but some people just dont want to listen. they'll only see what they want to. and you know once you  know that you cant blame them: they're only doing what they think is right. just like the rest of us. sure, you can hate them for it, but how long until someone decides what YOU'RE doing is disgusting and inhuman?? dont get me wrong, im not some freaky saint, i just realized that prejudiced and horrible people actually believe in what they do. ive hated them for it, cursed them, been shocked at their cruelty and wanted them dead but while i was writing this post i just looked at things from their point of view.... (which i still think is twisted). you might have noticed my new picture.... its equality. for everyone. gay, straight, hindu, muslim, christian, asian, caucasian, african, potterhead, directioner, whatever. :D well in other news im addicted to heart attack by demi lovato. its amazing :)
im wearing some new perfume thats apparently the favorite smell of every mosquito in the state so im going to go before i get eaten alive. good night :)

26.3.13

What on earth is wrong with the world?!

when things get too boring, i get a little crazy. and currently im incredibly bored :( but don't worry this isn't gonna be like some lame post where i just crib about how sad my life is (even though it is). sorry im doing it again.
anyway, late this Sunday afternoon i was on the way home from my aunts house in my moms car with my mom and sister. road trips are supposed to be fun, right? driving with the radio on loud on a sunny summer day. picture perfect right?? wrong. driving in this city reminds me of a lot of very confused and disobedient toddlers, who cant read traffic signs. seriously i mean how hard is it to STAY IN YOUR LANE?? and all you pedestrians, there are things called zebra crossings and traffic lights, that are there for a reason. and just so we're clear, RED means STOP and GREEN means GO. it would be really nice if people remembered that, and other things like when signs say heavy vehicles stay left, they mean heavy vehicles stay LEFT. really if someone was in a helicopter and flying over the roads looking down, they wouldn't be able to make head or tail of the traffic. i wouldn't even be able to tell if it was a zoo or a road. and i know sitting here complaining isn't going to do much, and you're supposed to be the change you want to see but i don't know what im supposed to do. write a letter to the traffic department? like a million other people have been there, done that. and anyway, the rules are already in place, its just that no one wants to follow them. but the traffic department could use some motivation. maybe a nice kind letter like this:
''hey yo traffic department! do you even exist? cus i cant see any evidence that you do. i think you guys have forgotten what ya'll are supposed to be doing. want a reminder?? MANAGE THE TRAFFIC. actual lanes on highways would be nice. also, a few more traffic signals and road signs that make some SENSE and don't broadcast meaningless rubbish. and get rid of the illegal hoardings for gods sake. no one cares which lucky politicians birthday it is. thank you. have a nice life.''
somehow i don't think that would work.... well maybe i could start a campaign or something. but everyone will tell me there are more important things to campaign about. and there are actually, but i don't feel like ranting about them right now, so ill rant about my own life instead.
isn't it amazing how people are always telling you to be yourself, and then they tell you exactly how to be at the same time? like ''don't try copying others, have your own style.'' and then the next day, ''oh my god WHAT are you wearing?'' it gets annoying. and some people can be SO judgmental. Hello everyone has their own reasons for doing things and im sure you do too. and on top of everything they lie and cheat and ugh.... god im just in an annoyed mood right now. and isn't it lovely when people lead you on?? they tell you're pretty and amazing and then they just.... ignore you. i so love that feeling. and i absolutely adore getting insulted by people who don't know anything about me. im done. good night.

22.3.13

Fangirls be like

im not writing a super long blog, but i just saw this picture and i HAD to post it. its so wonderful. :) :p


21.3.13

ramblings

ok, so im sure everyone has that moment in their lives where they go ''What the HELL is going on??''
when the smartest guy in class fails history. when your best friend basically calls you a selfish b***h. when a guy you've been flirting with online meets you in person and is kind of an ass. when your other long lost best friend calls out of the blue and you have a nice chat. when a guy you've been crushing on forever just got back in town after six months and you didnt even see him. and after all this you suddenly find yourself in tears, for no reason. you might have noticed that i kind of think im at that point.
and this is basically a rant blog, so if you aren't in the mood you might as well stop. so im trying to think of a song to go with this.... maybe breathe by Anna Nalik. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V8rtJRlLdI8
especially the part that goes '2 am and im still awake writing a song, if i get it all down on paper its no longer inside of me, threatening the life it belongs to.' theres also the fact that my 2 am friend isnt really my 2 am friend anymore. and at this point i could go into a whole 'what is wrong with the world'  paragraph but i just dont want to go there. so i will simply change the topic completely.
My newest fandom obsession (perhaps you've gathered by now that one of my hobbies is fangirling) is Imagine Dragons. i love that band. their music is sooo beautiful and thats really all that matters. i dont care who they're dating or what they look like (and its not like i know anyway) my favourite song by them is of course bleeding out. its practically my anthem by now. i love it because of the way the beat starts in the beginning and the epic guitar harmony in the end. one thing i really want to do is see them live... :'(
guess i can add that to the million other things i 'want'. why do we always want so many things anyway?? i mean is there ever a time when you dont want anything AT ALL??  and i dont mean being happy or blissful i mean when you dont want anything like not even a little more sunshine or just a slightly plumper pillow. i think the answer is no. we were made that way, to want things and have hopes and ambition. its what makes us human. at the same time, its also what can make us inhuman. so im not going to lecture y'all about greed and stuff :p and im bored of typing aimless rubbish about me.
ive been thinking about homosexuality and gay rights and stuff like that. the first time i really thought about that was when i went for this thing called MUN(model united nations) which is like the United Nations on a school level. i was in the human rights commission and we were discussing LGBT rights. and i met a girl who was against gays for the stupidest reasons. she thought people choose to be gay. i mean the way they are treated in my country, no one would choose that for themselves which she obviously hadnt thought of. i tried so hard to convince her that people cant change their sexual orientation! but she just didnt want to believe me. like she refused to see reason if it meant she'd have to change her opinion. some people just- ugh. *sighs in frustration* its not like i have any experience since i dont know any openly gay people but i do know that there isnt anything wrong in being born the way you are. if only our entire world knew that, we'd have so much less crime. unless you're born a serial killer then that would just lead to more crime if no one hated you and well.... yeah....
another thing ive been wondering about (i seem to wonder and think a lot huh??) is online flirting.... is it ethical?? or good? or bad? i have no idea. maybe its alright as long as you know the person you're flirting with well... :p but its so easy to lie online.you never know what the other person really means, or if its true. and you cant study their body language which is obviously what you need to figure out if someones messing with ya. sorry im sounding a bit PI- ish or preachy :p
so this has turned from a rant into a nice pleasant... umm.... i dont know what. :p and im not mad anymore at all. maybe a bit bored but thats pretty standard for me. ill go read one of my wonderful new books of which i bought 10 at this amazing book fair where you could by a kilogram of books for rs. 100 (which is an epic deal) normally one good book costs rs. 250 so.
im currently reading In The Midnight Hour by Michelle Spring and im dying to read Frostbite by richelle mead. if there was a song to describe me right now it would be something along the lines of very-sleepy-crazy-obsessed-fangirl-bored-typing-going... to... bed..... *yawn*
                                                                                        goodnight peeps! :)

13.3.13

back from the dead

wow. so i havent been on for what six months?? whoever was following this blog probably thought i fell off the surface of the earth or something. but no worries, im back from the dead :D.
so where i have been for the past six months?? in the land of the ridiculously busy, thats where. but i also discovered that i love being unbelievably busy.it keeps me going, gives me something to work for, a schedule, a time limit keeps me from wondering pointless things. when i have nothing to do, i tend to fall into depression, and thats somewhere im not going.
recently, i started to feel like i was losing myself. like i used to be this crazy rebel-atheist-feminist, then i became this super-perky popular chick, lost a best friend and made two more... and in the middle i was a depressed-snappy-teenager.
and now i have a moment to breathe, im going to try and see who i like better. the girl who just loves being whoever she is, or the girl who wants to be loved. or maybe ill always be both. :)
so my exams just got over, and i finally have time to myself and to make sure i dont die of boredom, i bought myself 10 books :D i finished one of them yesterday, its called How I Live Now, by meg rosoff and its one of the most beautiful books i ever read. it taught me a lot, about.. everything... war. people. emotions. love.
some of the other books that made me who i am are:

  • harry potter. this series i will love to my last breath.
  • pretty little liars and the lying game. they taught me a lot about people too.
  • the mortal instruments. addictive, and inspiring.
  • the thief lord
  • the hunger games
  • alex rider
  • private peaceful
  • the witching hour
  • and like a million more (thats not a book)
i guess if im getting into things i love, i could continue. music is a huuuuge part of my life, so is dance and sometimes acting :)
                                                                                 ***
ive been doing a lot of thinking about stuff like 'world issues' if you want to call them that, but some of that stuff actually matters. like gay rights. (FYI, i support gay rights, im not gay)and womens rights. and ive been thinking about war and terrorism too. and wondering what pushes people to kill others...
ok enough of this depressing stuff :p
so i have nothing much to say... id bore you with all the fabulous stuff i did in the last six months, but by now im bored of that too :p so this is goodbye :D hopefully ill be back in a lot less than six months :) one last smiley :D

30.3.13

Stop. Judging.

I saw this on Facebook a few days ago. i loved it. i wish i could show this picture to every prejudiced racist freak on this planet. and you know where id start?? my school. my city. my home. im completely serious. people here actually don't always trust Muslims  i once had a friend who said to me, " i dont like this area. there are too many Muslims here." i almost knocked her lights out. come to think of it, i should have. she's caused nothing but pain. (in case you're a bit slow, we aren't friends anymore). so getting back to the point, when are people going to realize that not all Muslims are terrorists?? just like all smart people are not nerds and not all pretty girls are stupid. i guess what im saying is STOP GENERALIZING. people just assume things about you, because you come under one label or the other. i've been called im a nerd nearly all my life. and sure sometimes i love being a nerd but people cant seriously think i do homework all day. so back to the picture. i dont think i can count the minutes ive spent trying to explain to the jerks in my class that not all Muslims are terrorists. but some people just dont want to listen. they'll only see what they want to. and you know once you  know that you cant blame them: they're only doing what they think is right. just like the rest of us. sure, you can hate them for it, but how long until someone decides what YOU'RE doing is disgusting and inhuman?? dont get me wrong, im not some freaky saint, i just realized that prejudiced and horrible people actually believe in what they do. ive hated them for it, cursed them, been shocked at their cruelty and wanted them dead but while i was writing this post i just looked at things from their point of view.... (which i still think is twisted). you might have noticed my new picture.... its equality. for everyone. gay, straight, hindu, muslim, christian, asian, caucasian, african, potterhead, directioner, whatever. :D well in other news im addicted to heart attack by demi lovato. its amazing :)
im wearing some new perfume thats apparently the favorite smell of every mosquito in the state so im going to go before i get eaten alive. good night :)

26.3.13

What on earth is wrong with the world?!

when things get too boring, i get a little crazy. and currently im incredibly bored :( but don't worry this isn't gonna be like some lame post where i just crib about how sad my life is (even though it is). sorry im doing it again.
anyway, late this Sunday afternoon i was on the way home from my aunts house in my moms car with my mom and sister. road trips are supposed to be fun, right? driving with the radio on loud on a sunny summer day. picture perfect right?? wrong. driving in this city reminds me of a lot of very confused and disobedient toddlers, who cant read traffic signs. seriously i mean how hard is it to STAY IN YOUR LANE?? and all you pedestrians, there are things called zebra crossings and traffic lights, that are there for a reason. and just so we're clear, RED means STOP and GREEN means GO. it would be really nice if people remembered that, and other things like when signs say heavy vehicles stay left, they mean heavy vehicles stay LEFT. really if someone was in a helicopter and flying over the roads looking down, they wouldn't be able to make head or tail of the traffic. i wouldn't even be able to tell if it was a zoo or a road. and i know sitting here complaining isn't going to do much, and you're supposed to be the change you want to see but i don't know what im supposed to do. write a letter to the traffic department? like a million other people have been there, done that. and anyway, the rules are already in place, its just that no one wants to follow them. but the traffic department could use some motivation. maybe a nice kind letter like this:
''hey yo traffic department! do you even exist? cus i cant see any evidence that you do. i think you guys have forgotten what ya'll are supposed to be doing. want a reminder?? MANAGE THE TRAFFIC. actual lanes on highways would be nice. also, a few more traffic signals and road signs that make some SENSE and don't broadcast meaningless rubbish. and get rid of the illegal hoardings for gods sake. no one cares which lucky politicians birthday it is. thank you. have a nice life.''
somehow i don't think that would work.... well maybe i could start a campaign or something. but everyone will tell me there are more important things to campaign about. and there are actually, but i don't feel like ranting about them right now, so ill rant about my own life instead.
isn't it amazing how people are always telling you to be yourself, and then they tell you exactly how to be at the same time? like ''don't try copying others, have your own style.'' and then the next day, ''oh my god WHAT are you wearing?'' it gets annoying. and some people can be SO judgmental. Hello everyone has their own reasons for doing things and im sure you do too. and on top of everything they lie and cheat and ugh.... god im just in an annoyed mood right now. and isn't it lovely when people lead you on?? they tell you're pretty and amazing and then they just.... ignore you. i so love that feeling. and i absolutely adore getting insulted by people who don't know anything about me. im done. good night.

22.3.13

Fangirls be like

im not writing a super long blog, but i just saw this picture and i HAD to post it. its so wonderful. :) :p


21.3.13

ramblings

ok, so im sure everyone has that moment in their lives where they go ''What the HELL is going on??''
when the smartest guy in class fails history. when your best friend basically calls you a selfish b***h. when a guy you've been flirting with online meets you in person and is kind of an ass. when your other long lost best friend calls out of the blue and you have a nice chat. when a guy you've been crushing on forever just got back in town after six months and you didnt even see him. and after all this you suddenly find yourself in tears, for no reason. you might have noticed that i kind of think im at that point.
and this is basically a rant blog, so if you aren't in the mood you might as well stop. so im trying to think of a song to go with this.... maybe breathe by Anna Nalik. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V8rtJRlLdI8
especially the part that goes '2 am and im still awake writing a song, if i get it all down on paper its no longer inside of me, threatening the life it belongs to.' theres also the fact that my 2 am friend isnt really my 2 am friend anymore. and at this point i could go into a whole 'what is wrong with the world'  paragraph but i just dont want to go there. so i will simply change the topic completely.
My newest fandom obsession (perhaps you've gathered by now that one of my hobbies is fangirling) is Imagine Dragons. i love that band. their music is sooo beautiful and thats really all that matters. i dont care who they're dating or what they look like (and its not like i know anyway) my favourite song by them is of course bleeding out. its practically my anthem by now. i love it because of the way the beat starts in the beginning and the epic guitar harmony in the end. one thing i really want to do is see them live... :'(
guess i can add that to the million other things i 'want'. why do we always want so many things anyway?? i mean is there ever a time when you dont want anything AT ALL??  and i dont mean being happy or blissful i mean when you dont want anything like not even a little more sunshine or just a slightly plumper pillow. i think the answer is no. we were made that way, to want things and have hopes and ambition. its what makes us human. at the same time, its also what can make us inhuman. so im not going to lecture y'all about greed and stuff :p and im bored of typing aimless rubbish about me.
ive been thinking about homosexuality and gay rights and stuff like that. the first time i really thought about that was when i went for this thing called MUN(model united nations) which is like the United Nations on a school level. i was in the human rights commission and we were discussing LGBT rights. and i met a girl who was against gays for the stupidest reasons. she thought people choose to be gay. i mean the way they are treated in my country, no one would choose that for themselves which she obviously hadnt thought of. i tried so hard to convince her that people cant change their sexual orientation! but she just didnt want to believe me. like she refused to see reason if it meant she'd have to change her opinion. some people just- ugh. *sighs in frustration* its not like i have any experience since i dont know any openly gay people but i do know that there isnt anything wrong in being born the way you are. if only our entire world knew that, we'd have so much less crime. unless you're born a serial killer then that would just lead to more crime if no one hated you and well.... yeah....
another thing ive been wondering about (i seem to wonder and think a lot huh??) is online flirting.... is it ethical?? or good? or bad? i have no idea. maybe its alright as long as you know the person you're flirting with well... :p but its so easy to lie online.you never know what the other person really means, or if its true. and you cant study their body language which is obviously what you need to figure out if someones messing with ya. sorry im sounding a bit PI- ish or preachy :p
so this has turned from a rant into a nice pleasant... umm.... i dont know what. :p and im not mad anymore at all. maybe a bit bored but thats pretty standard for me. ill go read one of my wonderful new books of which i bought 10 at this amazing book fair where you could by a kilogram of books for rs. 100 (which is an epic deal) normally one good book costs rs. 250 so.
im currently reading In The Midnight Hour by Michelle Spring and im dying to read Frostbite by richelle mead. if there was a song to describe me right now it would be something along the lines of very-sleepy-crazy-obsessed-fangirl-bored-typing-going... to... bed..... *yawn*
                                                                                        goodnight peeps! :)

13.3.13

back from the dead

wow. so i havent been on for what six months?? whoever was following this blog probably thought i fell off the surface of the earth or something. but no worries, im back from the dead :D.
so where i have been for the past six months?? in the land of the ridiculously busy, thats where. but i also discovered that i love being unbelievably busy.it keeps me going, gives me something to work for, a schedule, a time limit keeps me from wondering pointless things. when i have nothing to do, i tend to fall into depression, and thats somewhere im not going.
recently, i started to feel like i was losing myself. like i used to be this crazy rebel-atheist-feminist, then i became this super-perky popular chick, lost a best friend and made two more... and in the middle i was a depressed-snappy-teenager.
and now i have a moment to breathe, im going to try and see who i like better. the girl who just loves being whoever she is, or the girl who wants to be loved. or maybe ill always be both. :)
so my exams just got over, and i finally have time to myself and to make sure i dont die of boredom, i bought myself 10 books :D i finished one of them yesterday, its called How I Live Now, by meg rosoff and its one of the most beautiful books i ever read. it taught me a lot, about.. everything... war. people. emotions. love.
some of the other books that made me who i am are:

  • harry potter. this series i will love to my last breath.
  • pretty little liars and the lying game. they taught me a lot about people too.
  • the mortal instruments. addictive, and inspiring.
  • the thief lord
  • the hunger games
  • alex rider
  • private peaceful
  • the witching hour
  • and like a million more (thats not a book)
i guess if im getting into things i love, i could continue. music is a huuuuge part of my life, so is dance and sometimes acting :)
                                                                                 ***
ive been doing a lot of thinking about stuff like 'world issues' if you want to call them that, but some of that stuff actually matters. like gay rights. (FYI, i support gay rights, im not gay)and womens rights. and ive been thinking about war and terrorism too. and wondering what pushes people to kill others...
ok enough of this depressing stuff :p
so i have nothing much to say... id bore you with all the fabulous stuff i did in the last six months, but by now im bored of that too :p so this is goodbye :D hopefully ill be back in a lot less than six months :) one last smiley :D